Compulsive writer

Well, after that last post (The unspoken temptation) I thought a less heavy one would be in order today.

Somewhere in this blog I wrote a post about having a purpose. If you find something you are passionate about and work towards it you will find your attention taking a 180 from Leuk. It helps to get your thoughts away from him and your brain back in gear.

My passion, or at least it’s more than a favorite hobby, is writing. I write two blogs, this one and another that has nothing at all to do with Leuk called NonlinearBrain. I don’t do posts every day for either of them but I do try to keep them as fresh as possible.

I am also working on a novel. Most of my adult life I was “writing a book” of some kind. I started several ideas for several novels but never got more than a few chapters in on each of them. I guess I thought I was too busy and couldn’t find the time. More often than not I just felt discouraged and quit.

Funny thing though, when Leuk came along I was suddenly motivated. It’s the one good thing he did for me. I’ve completed my first draft. It is very rough and full of holes as first drafts often are, but the concept is completed. That’s further than I’ve ever gotten before. Now I am diving into the challenging task of writing the second draft. This one is a lot more work for some reason, but I’m plowing ahead.

I’m not saying I ‘love’ writing. Sometimes writing can be very hard work – oddly exhausting for a project being done from a chair. I guess you could say I have a love/hate relationship with writing. Actually, I can’t say I love writing at all. It is more of a compulsion really. Something I am driven to do. If any of you are writers than I’m guessing you’ll know what I’m talking about.

Now, I’m no where near as prolific as Hemingway. I’m also a whole lot less talented. But that doesn’t matter. The important thing is I am doing something. I have a long-term goal and it is keeping me a lot more positive and less involved with Leuk.

So, let me suggest, what ever you’re interested in doing, do it.